sábado, 19 de julho de 2008

The PLAN - Draft Version

After a couple of days on vacation in Portugal, I have once again realized that I do not want to stay here longer than a short period... Despite the several warnings of my parents to stay here, get an MBA, marry, have kids and die, I will not listen to them...


Nevertheless, I still have to plan my upcoming months and years... Actually, my plan was in fact to change job around september but my employer sacked me in advance. That job change would also mean that I would try to get more time for me... more time for girlfriend, more time for hobbies, more time for travelling... I was even taking in consideration to take a big step in my relation, which was to share a life... Once again, I was sacked...

Main reason for that is that I am not used to be with someone... After 2 and half years I have become selfish. In fact I have this slight problem of being egocentric and plan everything around me and not considering the other person. And many many times I say something that can hurt... such as, "I do not believe in love", "I will die young", "Women only create problems", etc etc... Well, my best friend warned me that I should not say that to anyone... I know she is right but I try to find with these sentences a way of protecting myself, a way of being stronger, a way of never to get hurt... I can do that but at the end it is not what I really meant for...

The result of all this... I lost someone that matched with me as no other... I was blind not to see it ealier and make things right but she also did not give me any chance to make it otherwise because she is selfish and does not believe in changes... I hope she will regret that and I strongly wish that she really would want to see the great guy I am and not that playboy that everybody think I am...

But life goes on... and I have to plan it taking in consideration the mistakes of the past. In deed, learning by mistake is be the best way of live life. So myplan for the moment is find out the job that most suits me. At the moment, I am concentrating all my research in Poland but for the time being, the phone is still not ringing. Therefore, the world will not be enough for me. USA, Ukraine, Ireland, Russia and Dubai, are now possible places where I am persuing to develop my professional career.

Lets see if I will be sucessful and get what I want... At this point I want these two issues in my life solve asap and in my favour because I always get what I want

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